EMPTY: Benefit Hello Flawless Foundation in Ivory

I've never really done an 'empties' review post, but to review a foundation, I personally think you really need to use it for a while before you review it.

I bought this from Boots for £25.50 after browsing the Benefit section and the make up artist approaching me. She did my full face with the make up and I felt obliged to buy some things (don't ever feel that you HAVE to, you don't!) I ended up buying the foundation and the Fake Up concealer.

My first thought was it was a little too dark and almost orange for me and I still have that opinion. If I apply it well I don't look orange, but it doesn't make me look as pale as I am. For me, this isn't a foundation I can do in a hurry and then leave the house - I've found this out the hard way. The colouring of the foundation on me is the only reason I won't repurchase this product.

I love the finish to the foundation (which is a tad too dark, but can be toned down with powder) and I think it looks great. It does not dry incredibly quick so you can blend it all in without worrying, however, it does have a dewy look and feel to it (I don't know how to explain, it takes a while to settle - almost moistened -  and dry into your skin...even with powder -) It doesn't have an odd smell which is common in quite a lot of foundations. The packaging is brilliant, I really love the Benefit names of products and how lovely everything looks - it doesn't look cheap. The foundation is distributed with a pump that lifts up so you don't have to really worry about the wastage and having some left at the bottom that the pump won't pick up.

Life as a trainee teacher

I haven't had much time to blog recently, mainly because I'm currently on a teaching placement. I do a teacher training course at university - primary education. So I'm fairly busy.

I don't have much long left, but I'm struggling to cope. All the observations make me feel quite negative and I don't feel that I'm going to be a good teacher because of it. I had an observation today with a member of staff from university who observed, I thought the lesson went appalling but they didn't see it to be as bad as me. It got to the question of 'what do you think you did that makes you a good teacher?' - I couldn't answer the question. I told them I'm quite a negative person and I cannot see anything good in anything I do, which led to a dreaded conversation on self-esteem. I have quite low self-esteem, especially in work, I feel I need a pick-me-up or for someone to say 'that was really good' to make me feel like I'm doing something right.

I compare myself to other people, which is the worst thing you can do as a person. I look at other people and I wish I could just somehow be as naturally good as they are, or make it seem so effortless. I wish I had parents, or family members who were in teaching, as many of my friends' parents are - which makes it easier for them with support (in my opinion). 

I just want to be at home. I have so much to do and I have so little time to do it in. I have no idea how I am supposed to do this. I have become the most disorganised person since I starting this teaching placement. In fact, I wish I had so much more time to go through.